Wisdom

I wrote this a long time ago. Something more like 12/30/2008
It's funny running back into those nonsensical things and still seeing where I got it all from. I consider myself healed. A survivor. Someone who wears the blindfold magnificently. Magnificently.
But I can still see it.

Wisdom

~If you don’t make your moves fast, if you aren’t living life

-Checkmate!-

Quote the killer

~For your grave marker

‘Sweet crying Angel

Made of stone-

If I die…Will you cry?

No!

~Seasons are reasons for you to be to be to be…

-Skirts are short enough to be belts

-Your actions are Halloween witch

-Those blades are ice skates

All around the merry-go-round

November means leaves

-Fall

Turn into fire. Red fire we mean.

~Falling…Falling…Draining!

And blood and money is drained

-Like rivers

In polluted cities

~You got special needs, sure what an excuse

I got a special cure, or something like it

-Sink your teeth in that frothy gal!

~Goldilocks ate deer poop. Life just ain’t chocolate.

~Lovely, when I hiccup

You are thinking of me, Aw sweetie.

…When I think of you

I cough up blood.

~Sir, if you repeat me, Pete

I’ll be forced to take necessary action.

-Off the bridge you go!-

~Psst, I can tell when doodles are having

Orgasms.

~Knock, knock, Come on in

-Bang, Bang-

Testing days are bored days

-Blah, Blah-

Getting rich is the cure baby

-Bling, Bling-

Take that to your mummy

-Secrets, Secrets-

Ain’t you a perty thing

-Screw, Screw-

What blabber you speakin’?

-Whore, Whore-

Stare at shifting foggy nights

-Pills, Pills-

Come on over, Come on in

-Bang, Bang-

~Flowers for me? You shouldn’t have!

Marry you? Me marry you?!

Sure, but why are you wearing white?

Dirty Bastard!

~I believe in blood and gore

Cut me up and kill the

Whore!

~Addresses, numbers, fax

They all require places

-Time?

None of those go well

With an unperceivable ‘sanity’

Which thrives in the mind

Of

I, MySelf, and me and we

~I’m an indulger.

Make me .

As society deems.

Blame me?

Dirty whore you call

Me.

~Bow ties make me go

Sweaty

Hot pants, wanna dance?

~If the world was backward

Everything forward would be

Backward and backward

Would be forward

-So now we love ping-pong

Under the deep blue sea

-So now come meet to fuck

Me.

With my husband

And as you watch yourself

Shoot me

I bleed wine that drunk heroes

Piss.

-We love ping-pong in a

Backwards world

~Wouldn’t it be funny

If a fish fell from the roof?

~Teddy bears make cute toys

But those eyes stare at me

And remind me that a

Child is dead and my child

Is dying because the sky

Is falling

~Do you speak for your friends?

Friends are only people

Who put their eyes in the chalice

-but

Pretty brown eyes

I love you

~If death do us part

Priest?

Why just leave me

Kill me and I don’t bleed

It’s the juice that you spit

In sex

And I won’t die

Because in death do us part

We are me and you

Keeper of the Dead Flowers

The harness around the mirror is cracked,
Blood, bruises, and pain are your better friends.
I'm hardly a consolation.
though i think you like me near

I think I admire your bravery.
I think I admire your blood, bruises, and pain.
I think I wish I could drown.

You could.
But I admire my desire to live more, or hate it.
Unsure. Either way,
I suffer for it.

Because you could drown.
But I'm always drowning.
You just gasp and throw up blood.
I let it live like poison inside.

In Dying

And so the mist swelled up from the snow
dancing in its own gloom glow.
Swallowing sun rays whole.
The roses crippled in the darkened night
begging for the return of light.
To burn out the blight.

Gold hues abandoned the circlet in the sky
and dust replaced the eye.
Permanence in sight.
No more in love's ache and never in hurt.
A frail existence subverted,


And for the body?
Burn it.

The HollowMan

January 7, 2011

My heart was the first to go-
but even so
Thoughts tortured me.
So I said goodbye to my brain and pulled out my eyes to string the life, poetry, and all else through.
The blackness still made it hard to breathe-
the truth.
So I dissected my lungs.
I really found no use for everything else and took it out as well.
I realized my skin still bled.
So I carved some wood and slipped inside.
Yes the fire still burned,
but I was still terrified of stone.
And didn't want to be like everyone else.

Falling into Sunrises

December 16, 2010

You make me want to write bad poetry.
Roses are red, violets are blue
Instead of tying up angels.
Glossy oil over marble Michelangelos.
Or even jazz that sings from horns.
Normally it's sex. Or death. Or those interconnections.
You make me want to dumb everything down,
You vacuous gelatin mind.

You make me feel less abnormal.
By the way,
I think I hate you for that.
There's something to be said for anti-insanity presences.

I want you to listen to my lip syncing, listen hard. Close your eyes,
Damn'it:

Sunrise's burn the waking eyes,
there's painful last breath as you die.
Clouds will touch you,
and although you won't feel,
You know by the tip of your tongue,
They do.
Earth may fold me in an embrace,
but not now, not now.
Today,
I feel your breath on my neck.
Stronger and warmer.
Ready for me to retrace.

Insert Cheesy Title

She was dancing. Lithe movements like something from a movie; was it all intentional, this perfect coordination? Water broke around her ankles and splashed her face and upper body and she bent low and tossed her head like a raging horse.

Her red hair flared against the night and her pale skin seemed breakable, even under my gaze. I could have seen her shatter for how strongly I watched her. She wore shorts only, and a tank top. Nothing seductive like a curtain of skirt to dance upon, but still it was enough. Bare skin flashed with each movement.

Cue the music that raged in my head. I couldn’t hear the music she obviously did. But I felt it. Thrumming deeply underneath my soles and through the ground, and exiting through her and her graceful movements like a spout. I felt the rain fall, and it never stopped her.

Every night it never stopped her.
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So funny story. It rains, thunders, and lightning is in the air and I'm watching it pour and I get the craziest urge. I can't think of why not to do this, which is insane in itself right, but I figure what is there to lose. I go outside and lay on the ground. It has rained so much that it is like lying in a shallow pool of water and it's raining so hard that I can only barely see the lightning in the sky despite feeling the thunder under my back.
I stay there for about ten minutes before my odd laughter turns into shivers and I realize I've ruined the new dress I bought.
It was worth it.

Tone

*A note, a comment, a little hint. Do not read this plainly, monotone, or like a mime. Read with the hint of rhyme - although there is none. Read with sarcasm, frivolity, and mourning...Read with emotion that had been locked into a television screen. If that makes sense to you.
Without further ado:

If there was ever a picturesque "blackened woods"- it was these.
Painted over by an oil so thick that it not only chocked the trees, but air itself. Screams were swallowed whole by these woods. Although you are lost, however no more or less than anyone else, you dare not take off the blindfold.

Being lost, at first, was not so bad. The darkness was not lonely, and it hardly appeared dark. The shallow breathing that was forced out of your deflating lungs was symphonic, and almost companion worthy.

It began with the itch on your nose.

You itched it. Just barely brushed the blindfold. Just barely.
In fact, so barely that it was softer than the air around it, and even the occasional breeze. However, it was so alien that you became aware of everything for a moment.
The oil layers on your skin and the numbing cold as it stiffened on you - but that was gone soon enough.

But something wasn't. You felt the edge of your blindfold on your face so acutely that every thread hummed with a strange life.

You dared not touch it.

But it rubbed on you, slipped and slid across your eyes, and you itched and rubbed your body in hope to distract yourself. But it was powerful. Even in sex you felt the threads over your eyes. Mocking you in their strange life.

Sitting at the roots of this blackened tree in these blackened woods...You've been bleeding out slowly...You cut your tongue out...Ripped your nails out...Still the blindfold lay against your eyes like the marriage band. Stuck. Suffocating.

The shallow breathing had slowed and you heard your heartbeat. A thump, a thump, quicker thump ... then a thump, a thump.

Touching your face, the blood smeared. Your fingers skirted away from that filth. Skirted until you began touching the electrifying edges of that blindfold. You place your hands over your eyes as if to smother it in. Grimacing.

You become the scream swallowed whole.